Create and Destroy

Happy Friday! It’s almost Saturday and I should be in bed by now normally. I’ll write before I got to bed tonight. Today’s topic is about destroying phase and creating phase in life.

June has been very challenging for me. I think it started around the end of May, probably around the Memorial weekend. I couldn’t figure out what was up honestly but every morning I woke up with thick energy sitting in my energy field. So, normally my morning meditation and clearing is my peaceful time, but morning this month has been very rather ill feeling. I didn’t know but maybe I was already starting the phase of destroy phase in life.

In order to create a new in life, you have to destroy. I wrote about removing the olds in order to bring the new. It’s the same thing. Sometimes, removing will do. Sometimes, it’s more of destroying in order to create a new thing in life. It’s like life-death cycle. In order to give life in your life, death happens. I’m not talking about someone dying here.

This week, I’m letting go of a friend who hasn’t been good for me. I won’t go too much in details since I know that I’m still in the middle of this process. I still get this friend’s energy gushing into my space and I haven’t had a peaceful space quite yet. I took an action and since then, it’s been really hard for me this week. My empath has been really strong and opened up last few weeks, so I’m super sensitive. I can feel this friend’s energy and it’s really painful because this friend has so much pains. Since I’m an empath and I do care about people, it’s really challenging to let go of someone no matter how it is for my highest good.

While that’s happening, my car broke down on me last night on the way back from a Zumba class. My stress level is way up because of that. I mean, I’ve been having some eating problem from letting go of my friend matter to start with, car breaking down on me is something. I almost thought of cancelling the Zumba class tonight, but I rented a car and went to teach Zumba. If you look at monetary value, that’s probably not the move you do. However, there is more than monetary value in life’s energy circle and I decided that I’ll take the invisible portion by doing so. Now, I have to figure out what to do with my car because I don’t think I’m willing to fix it. Me breaking up with friend; my car breaking up with me….

So, here is the destroy phase. I’m letting go of my friend. I’m also letting go of my good old friend, car. In order to create a new, next best abundance in your life, you have to destroy which are not working for you. My car was definitely ending its life. My friend was sucking my energy out of my life. In fact, I felt like I’m losing my will to live since it’s been so hard with energy gushing into my space. So, I need to let go: destroy phase.

Destroy phase isn’t fun at all. Sometimes you don’t even know if it’s the right thing because it’s a mess and it really doesn’t feel good. It feels awful more likely. Though, when this phase is clear, you have a space for creating a new. Creating the most suitable, next best abundant, new in your life.

When you’re in the destroy phase, don’t be discouraged. It’s not that the universe is against you or bad things keep happening to you. You have to destroy to create a life. You can always ask support from the universe because the universe is always supporting you no matter how you feel. It shall pass. This phase shall pass. Then you get to bring in a beautiful life in you.

With that, have a wonderful weekend! Oh, graduation is always life-death cycle, isn’t it? You complete and you start a new! 🙂

Know the Differences in Your Wise Voice and Interference

Happy Saturday! It’s June already and is Saturday already! I don’t know my relationship with the planetary energy this month, but this week was pretty heavy for no obvious reasons! I updated my brochure this morning, so now I shall write a blog! Today I’ll write about the differences in voices in your head.

The other day, someone was asking me if she should clear the energy of the diamond inherited from her grandmother. For no brainer answer for that is sure, you want to clear energy from anything you possess. The question for me was this: Is this something I should be dealing with, meaning, should I clear the energy of this stone? Or is this even I should dip into it, meaning, is this my problem or not my problem? When you think of the business perspectives, as long as your customer pays for the time, maybe it’s ok to do business around it. That’s something my teacher said long time ago to me when I was mentioning about one healee. As much as I respect my teacher, this part I sort of not cool with that.

I have a purpose of my healing work. I chose what I do in the spiritual realm. Early on, I decided not to do the John Edward thingy. If you don’t know who he is, he is so called medium who communicate with deceased souls and delivers the messages to the living people. I respect what he chose to do, but that’s not what I chose to do as a primary work in my healing practice. Occasionally, the deceased energy does come to communicate desperately, then if it is a highest good for the healee but not the deceased, I do deliver the messages.

I don’t do medical intuitive, either. I looked into it early on. However, as I mentioned before that I gave up on going to the medicine because I am extremely sensitive, it would be a little too risky genre for me. So I only do in the very soft, casual way around that topic. Clearing home or business space is something I learned that it’s just necessary. So, I do it for a service.

Clearing energy of a material, of course, I can do that. The issue for me in this case of the topic is that I didn’t feel too motivated about it.Even before this person was contacting me, I had a whole series of strange, lower vibration energy coming into my space which I didn’t really understand what was up. When I saw the email, my original reaction was a sigh. That tells me that there is either resistance or effort involved if I were to do the work.

Meanwhile I had a few different work to do during the day, so I visited again in the evening after my last Zumba gig was done. I was getting, “Don’t Bother. Sell.” So, I checked one more time before I emailed the person and told her that I was getting, “sell” so if the stone is really important for her, I would be happy to take a look and work on clearing the energy. If not, consider selling it and exchange with the monetary energy, then get a new one suitable for herself. But again, I told her to ask her wise self and decide what she wants to do about it, then she can let me know. I’m pretty sure she would come back to me to tell me that she would sell.

So, how do I know my “voice” is the right voice and it’s not the wrong message? Well, I don’t know for sure to be honest with you. I would never know for sure to be honest with you. I just know that I’ve learnt to listen to the tone of voices and to pay attention to my physical and emotional reactions. Our body and emotion are quite amazingly tuned to the answers.

If I’m nervous, that’s one thing, but if I’m lethargic or demotivated, that’s a really big sign that I need to pay close attention to. Especially since I do a very invisible, subtle energy work, any kind of lower vibration energy or reactions are not to be missed. Another thing is that I was getting the same message again and again, clearer and clearer. So, what I normally do nowadays is, instead of questioning and analyzing the reasoning, I just go for the message I get. It works pretty good as long as I don’t screw up by analyzing or making things more difficult by using effort.

So, what the other kind of “voice” would be? It can be like this. “Since this is a business opportunity, I should just do it.” “It’ll be an easy money (Ah…. I have to disagree with that Mr.!).” “It would help this lady, so I should do it.” “Maybe if I say no, she would be offended,” etc. Something like that. Those are more of our conditioned or programmed way of “thoughts.”

There are “voices” which are a little more subtle but very sneaky. Something like this: “the energy attached to the stone is interfering this lady, so clearing up would help her from interference.” “The energy is already visiting my space won’t go unless I do something to do with this stone.” “Aren’t I for the green eco system? Do I want to encourage to buy new stuff and dump the olds to make the earth buried with old materials?” Yeah, something like that. So, it’s not really from my programmed “thoughts” but it’s from something else, either you call it “energy” or “beings” or “entities” or whatever.

Anyway, the bottom line, all the voices like these might have a point, but is it serving me for MY highest good? Sure, it needs to be a highest good for the healee, but the issue is, “Is it for YOUR highest good?”

People talk about ghosts, deceased, aliens and freak out about it, but energy is pretty sneaky and interfering. When you make decisions and you can’t really hear your own voice, highly likely you’re bombarded with others’ energy. When you know what you need to do but your feel like you’re going out of control, yeah, that’s another indicator that you got other’s energy in your space. So, clear out your energy field and start having a good relationship with your wise self. The more you do it, the easier it gets. When life gets a little intense, I can guarantee that communication with your wise self is really helpful.

With that, have a wonderful weekend! Happy June! 🙂

How To Know The Differences in Energy

Happy Mother’s Day! I’m really wishing you having a beautiful, joyful Mother’s Day with lots of love and gratitude! I wrote a blog on Friday, so I thought I’m free to do other things than writing a blog this weekend. Though, the messages or ideas hit again, so I need to put it on writing. Maybe someday I’ll write a book to put all together, but for now, writing a blog works for me. Today’s topic is about how to know the differences in energy. Though, I don’t know if I can explain or give you a guidance on how to differentiate. It’s just this title matches what I want to write about. It’s about knowing what is coming in your space.

This morning, I started early as usual since lately I have many energy visitors during my sleep time, so unless I get up and start working on my energy field to clear up, it gets worse and worse and starts affecting my thoughts. I also read a couple of chapters of Hicks’ book, “The Astonishing Power of Emotions” this morning and was doing the exercises to shift my thoughts to be aligned to my true self. The interesting part for me is that when I do something like this, I get multiple messages and ideas including visions. I’m very kinesthetic, so normally my clairvoyance and clairaudience aren’t the first route of intuition, but they get very active as well as my strong clairsentience.

As I was finishing up the chapter I was reading, I was noticing that the tenacious energy was in my space. I get all sorts of energy visits, good or bad, so I can’t really pay attention to each and single time because otherwise, I’ll spend my day, clearing, sitting on the chair forever 24/7. When I was done reading the chapter, I had a thought. The thought was, “This is a spirit coming into my space. I don’t know who the hell this is, but this is a spirit.” As soon as I had that through, the vision started to open up. I saw a male energy, fairly older, might have been a human at one point in the past, long time ago, but now completely just a spirit existence. Then, I immediately thought, “It’s the Abraham!”

To give you a little more background about Hicks and their books, Esther Hicks is a channel of a being (or spirit) called “Abraham” who gives her the insights of spiritual wisdom. Hicks writes books and does workshop to deliver the messages given by the spirit Abraham. That’s the basic premise of the how this book is written.

The thing is… Normally I would avoid such people or books as much as possible. That doesn’t mean they’re bad or books are bad. Actually their work and their messages are valid and good. It’s just my sensitivity to energy. I pick up everything around energy. If beings (spirits) are involved, I can pick up on that, too. If someone is a “channel,” I pick up on that, too because they have this specific sensation which gives me a eerily body reactions. To give you more specific, the “channel” means many different things. Some channels channel the energy and message through their writings. Some brings their messages to their fifth chakra only. Some brings the beings (spirits) in their bodies. That last one is called, “transmedium.”

As a very sensitive person, I can tell when someone is a channel because they bring in the different vibrational energy into their space. Especially transmediums give me a very specific feelings and sensations that I don’t really like to come close to them. Again, that doesn’t mean all are wrong or bad. All I’m saying is based on what I can handle, what my sensitivity can handle. So… you might have a better understanding of why I never really liked the Hicks’ books because I could sense this “channel” thingy. When I was getting so sensitive all of the sudden once I opened the door of spirituality, all I could do is to avoid all the energy which makes me feel strange and resistant. So, till recently I never touched their books. I tried to read one famous book called, “Ask and It is Given” but every time I tried to buy or check it out, I got a big “NO!” So, it took me for years to even touch their work.

When I realized that it was the “Abraham” spirit coming into my space, I had to ask this spirit to give me some space. I asked him (I call him although spirits don’t really have gender per se) to back off from my energy field and just communicate with me telepathically or show me images because it’s too much for me if he comes into my energy field. He did back off and started to show me more vivid images. I felt immediately better. Man, my throat was feeling like swollen with some energy coming in, my heart region was hot and top of my head was bothering because a spirit was coming into my seventh chakra which is a spiritual chakra on top of my head. It was very uncomfortable.

I can’t explain why but this happens sometimes more than I’d like to anticipate for. When the beings (spirits) want to communicate with me so strongly, they do every attempt to get my attentions. It happened in the last clairvoyant class I was holding a space for the class. Just a brief summary of it is someone in the class did something helpful for the family of the deceased one (just deceased a couple of days previous to the class) and the deceased one wanted to say “thank you” to this person. Only if someone can pay attention and listen to what he has to say, then he won’t come to my space. Well, who would pay attention to something like that in life?!!!

Anyway, the beginning of the class while we were meditating, I was having massive sneezing, head pressure, nausea, etc. and I was really not doing well. I had a duty to do, although I have a right to take care of myself first, my focus was scattered because I was holding the class space to be safe from any energy coming into the class space. While we were in the debriefing after the initial meditation, the person who needed to hear the message started to share the story of around this family with the deceased one.  As soon as she started to talk about the story, I had a thought, “it’s HIM.” Then, I started to sense, see, hear his face and message. So, I delivered the message to her, “Thank you for telling me the story because now I understand what this energy coming into my space so strongly is. The ‘dad’ is telling me to tell you, ‘Thank You.'” She totally got it and my whole experience with this energy attack had ceased immediately. Man, that was so unpleasant to be in my shoes at that time!

Anyway, the long story long, Abraham wanted to validate and encourage me for doing the work. He was validating my healing work, delivering messages of the law of the universe and creating the workshop which I decided to do with the meditation technique I learned and his law of universe principle. So, I take that. He also understand that I’m not interested in doing the Esther Hicks thingy, the transmediumship. He can show me images or communicate with me telepathically, but no one, including any enlightened spirits come into my space in any time. I’m the boss in my own space!

The reason I decided to write about this is that my journey of my sensitivity of energy is an on-going, expansive experiences through my spiritual learning throughout the years. What I could handle, know now are very different from what I could handle years back. Now, I can tell and differentiate what my body is reacting to, what else is there, etc. Just because you feel energy or something doesn’t mean it’s just one thing. It could be a bundle of energy coming at once. Before I would totally see it as one bundle. Now I can see each and individual within the bundle. Some, I have to deal with it as it’s not good for any, some I have to communicate, some I have to work on myself, some I ask assistance from the Source.

Your learning and awareness come in continuous and gradual process. When you’re not ready to see or understand, it’s not shown that way. When things are ripen and you’re there to know, you see the different depth and dimensions. So, take it easy! Do one step at a time! Nothing in life is given to you if you can’t handle.

With that, have a happy happy Mother’s Day Sunday! 😀

Hicks E. & J. (2007). The Astonishing Power of Emotions. Carlsbad: Hay House.