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Nothing But Joy and Amusement

Happy Easter! It’s Easter Sunday, guys! I want to do the egg hunting with kids! It sounds like a fun thing to do on Easter! I was working on the new song selection for the next couple of weeks Zumba gig and I really enjoyed some of the Zumba video clips! I have to say that Beto, the originator of the Zumba, is a joyful dancer! It makes me want to dance and smile by watching him dance! I think that’s what Zumba attracted me for. I wanted to create a fun and joyful class, not the beat and blood type of fitness class. Anyway, with that, I couldn’t resist to write about joy and amusement.

When you have so much joy and fun, life is lighter, right? Yeah, that’s for everybody. But, life gets stressful and things get very challenging from time to time. Are you waiting for that stressful time to pass and after it passes, you’re planning to have fun and joy? Yeah, I know I sometimes think that way, too, but it’s the other way around. When life is rough and tough, you really have to bring your joy and amusement up more.

Yesterday, I wrote a blog about the energy coming out of others which is not necessarily their energy. I realized that I do need to add one thing on that. When someone is vibrating in low vibration, one has a vibration which is not their true vibration in his/her space, then the similar energy comes into that space. It can be just energy. It can be beings, spirit, entity, whatever you want to call it. Because I do the healing work, I do get all sorts of energy coming into my space. Sometimes, it can be from my healees I have sessions, could be prospective who are thinking about contacting me or pondering about my service, could be just acquaintance, could be totally unrelated to my personal matter, etc. So, I tend to spend lots of time meditating and clearing my energy field because it just doesn’t feel good.

The trick is, though, if you focus on the darkness, even if that’s for the clearing purposes, all of your energy is focused on the darkness. Meaning, your thoughts, your feeling, your life can get darkness if you are so focused on it. Of course, you do need to address what needs to be changed, cleared, or removed from your space or your life; however, if you’re only focusing on that, your life and thoughts get very dark and depressive. I can guarantee you on that.

So… What should you do then? Make sure you have the good positive dose of vibration for yourself everyday. You listen to the Dr. Oz or your personal doctors who would tell you to take vitamins or to get sun for vitamin D, right? Why not doing the same thing for the positive vibration dose for you as well?! The more you feel bitter and stressed, the sure sign that you need joy and amusement in life. Have you noticed that you are feeling jealous on someone for no reasons? Then, check if you’re having good enough dose of fun and amusement in life. If you have a joyous life, there is nothing you feel jealous about other people.

I sometimes wonder how cool to be working at an ice cream shop. People come to the ice cream shop, smiling, giggling, so excited, old or young, then they look so happy having your ice cream! Oh my gosh! Would it be nice if your work is like that? People are so happy to have your creation and smiling, giggling, having fun and then having gratitude even! Man, that is a super work space! I don’t know if people in the ice cream shop all think that way, but I feel that way every time I visit ice cream shop.

I wrote that my Zumba gig was taking so much out of me and I wasn’t having a good time around February and March, right? Sure enough, I wasn’t having fun. Though, it was a good learning process for me. It made me realize what I wanted to create in my Zumba gig because of that process. Now, I don’t really go back and force pondering what I can do or I need to do. Right now, I’m having a pretty good time. I’m back to having joy in my Zumba gigs like I used to when I was taking the classes from other instructors. I make faces which is a good sign (because that’s what I do when I’m myself). I pick up songs which make me feel good and want to dance. I pick up choreography which is easy enough to teach and for others, but more importantly makes me want to dance. So, I’m getting on the track! Joy track!

I’m not just saying the impossible, people. I know the energy of low and dark vibration is impossible for you to have fun and joy. However, it’s not impossible. You just haven’t tried out shifting the vibration focus. On some days, I start my morning impossibly dark and low. I can’t even get out of the bed when the dark vibration is pushing down my body and head. But, I pull myself up and start meditating so I can remove those low vibration which isn’t mine. Moreover, I do focus on imagining and picturing the positives which make my face smile. It can be a funny clip. It can be just imagining your wish really coming true in your hands. Then, the lower vibration gets loose and easier to remove. The more amusement you have, the easier time you’ll have to shift your energy and clear your energy.

With that, have an amazingly joyous Easter Sunday! 😀

Love Instead of Hate

I was going to skip blogging this weekend, but the same topic keeps showing up from the morning. So, I’d better write about it! Today, I’m going to write about my family dynamics and what I learn again and again from it. It’s all about healing and changing ourselves but not necessarily others. It’s nothing to do with others changing.

My family lives in Japan and I’m basically singularly living in the US away from my original family. My dad has passed, so my mom who has Alzheimer’s lives in the city I grew up in and my sister also lives in the same city. So, when it comes to my mom’s matter, I have to rely on my sister. I do my best in the non-visible realm, but what matters to the most of the people is the visible matter. So, my sister has lots to carry. I wish I could help, but I’m thousands miles away across the ocean.

When my mom got the diagnosis of Alzheimer’s, I used all the spiritual healing tools to shift my family to move my mom out of the house to the group home. I visited them in order to do that. It wasn’t easy since I hadn’t associated with Japan or Japanese at that point, so it was literally doing things in the foreign country, i.e. Japan. Besides, my sister is the one who has to do the physical action. I have been taking the position of behind the scene advisor, meaning, energetically move things in order to make the physical matter happens. I probably haven’t gotten any credit for that, rather I probably have been accused of not doing things at all.

When my sister needed my help around my mom, things were quite all right. We have connected unlike it has ever been. A few years later after my mom has settled in the group care home, the intense need around my mom’s situation has dissipated. Then, the old, the history of my relationship with my sister started to surface more strongly.

My sister is a half sister, my dad’s. When she was little, her mom left my dad and my sister. When I found out about it as a kid, I empathized my sister and took it on. I gave all the excuses of my sister’s mean, bully behaviors toward me as she has a good reason to behave such. That’s the little kid me’s comprehension. As I grew older and do spiritual work on myself, I do see more than that. My sister’s situation was never my fault to start with and there is no reason for me to take responsibility of her wounds.

Since I’m a very sensitive intuitive, without communicating or hearing, I see and understand what’s going on with my sister. She has more and more soreness around me lately and she is very resentful of me. Even though I do love my sister and my mom, it’s never been easy for me to be around ever since I was little. It’s again getting like that especially this year. Funny thing is I live in Seattle, far from their breath. Still, I sense and feel the soreness heavily sit in my sister. I wish I could fix it but I can’t. I’ve tried many ways. I can’t change her. I can’t heal her wound because it’s not me to fix. It’s her wound.

It’s August and I wondered how my sister was doing. I, of course, wonder how my mom is doing. Though, I check with her spirt to spirt and I’m cool with my mom because I can connect with her spiritually. When I thought of emailing my sister, but I had this bitter feeling in my chest, I didn’t like it. So, I decided to do something around it without my sister involved. I then did the Hawaiian Ho’oponopono prayer meditation.

I have done the Ho’opnopono prayer around my sister many many times. Though, since I noticed the bitterness in me when I thought of her, I thought I could use it again. I closed my eyes and set my meditation tools. I placed a rose representing my sister and said to the rose, “I’m sorry.” Some heat was showing up around my chest. “I forgive you (in Ho’opnopono, it’s actually “Please forgive me” but I do differently on this).” Again, something stirred up on my third chakra. “I love you.” My throat was tight. “Thank you.” Again another heat showing up in my body. Then, I opened my eyes. I didn’t have the bitterness in my chest any more.

So, this was a reminder for me. When I feel sore about someone, no matter how wrongly that person might have been toward me and no matter how unreasonable someone might be, I can always work on myself. Instead of feeling angry, bitter, jealous, inferior, sad, etc., I can clear those feelings and energy from me, then I wouldn’t be lighting up from that person any more. Instead of wanting someone to behave differently and being hurt, I can change how I operate and feel. Love is much higher and stronger vibration than hate or anger. Forgiveness heals us more than anyone else.

If you ever have any sore feeling toward anyone or any situation, try the Hawaiian Ho’opnopono. You don’t have to know the details. Each mantra, as you can probably sense, has a deep energetic vibration. If you’re hurt, work on you to change the soreness. You don’t even have to deal with the person at this point. You can just do the work on yourself. It’s really amazing to know how much of our emotions are only stirred up from our own. The person who lights you up is just helping you to get rid of that energy from your space.

Choose to love yourself and all instead of vibrating low! ❤

Graduation – Completion – Celebration – New Journey

It’s the fourth of July weekend. It looks like everybody is out of town and it’s much quieter than the normal Sunday. I like Sunday and I like it more today because the city is quiet. Though, energetically I’m lighting up big time, but that’s all good. It’s a new beginning for my spiritual journey. So, today’s topic is about graduation and new journey.

Last week was the graduation of the clairvoyant class I’d been assisting for the past six months. It’s one year program, but since I was working at night in the corporate world, I joined them in the last half starting from this year. I’d already met the students before as I am a regular participating healer in the healing clinic which my teacher’s school holds every month. Previously, I had been doing the assistant role in the remote clairvoyant class last year, but the class had to break as the schedule no longer worked for the students at that moment. When I meditated on my next step of learning, this second half of the clairvoyant class popped up in my image. Hence, I joined them.

So, we had a graduation class to revisit all the topics they’ve covered throughout the first half year and the second half year. From the assistant, space holder’s point of view, they’ve changed a lot. This is true in any classes I’ve participated. Especially, the shift in the clairvoyant class is very visible because it’s a one year program. I had only witnessed for the last six months, so I’m sure the shift in the past 12 months must be significant. I’m just previllaged to witness this amazing evolution of each class. It’s quite beautiful.

No matter how students think or notice about their change or evolution, the shift is certain. They might feel that nothing has changed or they think they can’t read/see things like they had hoped. Though, that’s such a small matter. The bottom line is that these spiritual classes are not for becoming the great clairvoyant readers or powerful healers to others. The main goal is to heal ourselves. Some gets that. Some never gets that. But, that’s all good because we see the change in them big time. So, let’s celebrate!

Celebration is important. It tells us we completed something. It tells us we accomplished something. It tells us we need to stop being a forward looking at a moment and instead, to look back to validate what we have done for ourselves. Hence, the graduation class was beautiful and fun. I was grateful to be part of it. It was a wonderful experience.

Celebration is important because it helps us to take time to end what we’ve being doing. When we complete and end something, then only then we can create a space for a brand new beginning to come into our lives. It’s like the end of the year and the new year. It’s like a Feng Shui principle: destroy old and create a new.

How often do we get any validation? I probably recall one incident of validation in my two years of last corporate work. Only one! The rest was all invalidation for all the work and diligence I had put everyday. I hope your situation isn’t that bad like mine, but for sure we don’t get validated enough. Don’t you agree? So, what do we need to do? We need to validate ourselves or else, others might not. It’s not other’s fault. People got their own stuff, so not too many people have a space so enlightened to be truthful to your wonderfulness. So, celebrate every completion you made, small or big, and validate your work and you.

Another part is that things really happen in right time. Once you complete and celebrate whatever your project or journey is, then you just make a space for the new journey to come. Then, wait for the great fit for your new learning. You don’t have to know what it is. The universe knows. You just need to know the life and death, complete and start new cycle.

For instance, when I took the assistant role in the remote clairvoyant class, I was looking for my next learning. At that time, I was in the tech field, dealing with the organizations globally and remotely. I still do have problems with energy coming through a network, but at that time I was bombarded by it and I almost had fears using the computers. Guess what? I ended up working for a job in which I had to deal with all the energy through computers. It was rough because that wasn’t the only resistance I had. That job brought me the mass energy topics which I had some difficulty with.

Hence I needed some learning assistance. Then the remote clairvoyant class showed up. I was thinking about a remote meditation class to learn to deal with energy remotely; however, my teacher revealed it was a remote clairvoyant class after I signed up (I know she didn’t hide it on purpose but she said “remote meditation class.” I’m sure the universe did it on purpose because otherwise I probably wouldn’t have committed in such a long class project on top of my difficult job at that time.. ).

Now, since the clairvoyant class graduated, I have 70% possibility of doing the assistant role again in the up coming new clairvoyant class starting this month. Don’t I get bored? I bet that’s exactly the reason people don’t take the same classes again. I must say, “no.” I don’t get bored. The class program is the same. Students learn the same curriculum. However, every class is different. Each class brings different energy and focus depending on who signs up and what they bring in. Also, I set up a different intent on my own learning. Surprisingly enough, I get what I ask for. I get new learning each time. I get new topics of focus each time for myself. It’s not something I discuss with my teacher. In fact, I share them with her after the fact. So, I have to meditate on what I want to learn next.

Wherever you are in life, whatever you’re doing in life, I hope you take time to celebrate from time to time. It’s not about criticizing you or judging you. It’s about validation and gratitude for your journey. When you clear up the old, then you can set your intent for the new journey. Then, your new and exciting shall visit you soon. So, let’s celebrate! 🙂